Mary Jensen
Twenty-Three
Twenty-three is how old you would be today. Three years since I have seen your smile or heard your laugh. I think about when you were...
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Mary Jensen
May 30, 20201 min read
The Storm
The Storm A broken mother And sad brother Eternal cloudy days A father with regrets Apologies are unpaid debts Rain washing away that...
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Mary Jensen
Feb 15, 20204 min read
The Dark Side of My Grief
Trigger warning: PTSD, car accident, death Grief is More Than Feeling Sad and Lonely What do you think about when you hear the word grief?...
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Mary Jensen
Aug 18, 20193 min read
The Last of The Firsts
Remember when our children were born, and it doesn’t really matter how many children we have, we counted their first smile, their first...
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Mary Jensen
Aug 5, 20192 min read
Twenty-One
How do we do this today? It's supposed to be a day of celebration, presents, and blowing out candles. It's supposed to be a day spent...
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Mary Jensen
Jun 19, 20194 min read
Grief is Exhausting
I’m so tired. I’m tired of feeling sad. I’m tired of my feet feeling like weights as I walk from place to place. Every morning I look in...
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Mary Jensen
May 19, 20193 min read
Planning the One Year Memorial
The school year is almost over. It’s usually a time for family vacations and days spent in the pool or at the beach. I think back to the...
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Mary Jensen
May 6, 20192 min read
The Day He Died is Like an Old Movie Spinning Endlessly on its Reel
Every day these moments play in my head like an old movie spinning endlessly on its reel. I am left stuck sitting there watching it over an
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Mary Jensen
Mar 17, 20194 min read
A painful existence between acceptance and denial
I had lunch this week with a good friend of mine. She and I have something in common. We are part of this miserable club that no one...
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Mary Jensen
Feb 20, 20195 min read
I want to help people who feel broken inside find their new normal
I know my posts lately have been dark, sad, and filled with grief. (I promise this one won't be too sad and dark) I am trying to cope...
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Mary Jensen
Jan 21, 20194 min read
This is My New Normal...Five Months after My Son’s Death
It’s been five months now. Five months since Erik’s death. I still have a hard time saying that. While I know he is gone, it is...
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Mary Jensen
Dec 25, 20183 min read
A Different Kind of Christmas
It’s Christmas day. Our home is decorated inside and out with ornaments and holiday trinkets. Garland carefully draped along the...
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Mary Jensen
Nov 22, 20182 min read
Why I Am Grateful
Thanksgiving is here, Christmas is not far behind, and 2018 is coming to a fast close. As we get ready to greet family and friends and...
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Mary Jensen
Nov 11, 20182 min read
A Faithless Grief
We all experience grief in our own way. I suppose some people can process grief more easily than others. I am not one of those people. ...
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Mary Jensen
Oct 7, 20182 min read
My Heart is a Firestorm Fueled by Grief
The palms of my hands hurt. Yet the scorching pain in my heart is relentless. I feel as if I am losing my mind. The hardest times for...
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Mary Jensen
Sep 28, 20183 min read
It's called a Bereavement Support Group
After some confusion with my GPS map, I finally found the right building on the Hospice property where the bereavement support group...
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Mary Jensen
Sep 25, 20181 min read
A few thoughts before my first grief support group meeting
Tonight I am going to my first grief support group meeting which is hosted by the local hospice. I heard it's a very good group. I don't...
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Mary Jensen
Sep 23, 20181 min read
Stop telling me its going to be okay
Erik, I'm struggling so bad.. How the hell do I accept this? How do I continue to live without feeling guilty you're not? My best...
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Mary Jensen
Sep 23, 20182 min read
My Heart is Broken, Still Life Goes On
I had this dream a few nights ago. It was a weird dream. I was in an old fashioned home. The rooms were painted in dark colors. There...
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Mary Jensen
Sep 11, 20181 min read
When will
My sister, Emily, wrote this beautiful poem in memory of my son Erik. I loved it and wanted to share it with you. #ErikHoxie...
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