Tonight I am going to my first grief support group meeting which is hosted by the local hospice. I heard it's a very good group. I don't know exactly what that means. I'm feeling a little anxious about it. In order to get through this, I need to be around other people who have. I hope it helps me.
I have been to Al-Anon and Nar-Anon groups where you have to get up and say your name and explain why you're there. I am hoping that this meeting is not like that, but I suspect that it is. I don't think that I'm ready to stand up and tell my story to a room full of strangers, at least not yet.
I am also trying not to have too many expectations. I certainly don't expect to be "cured" after just one meeting. Even though I don't know how I am hoping that the people in the group will provide some comfort.
My plan today is to fight back the anxiousness that I feel, take deep breaths, and keep an open mind. I am prepared for my own emotional breakdown too. I stuffed my purse full of tissues. Wish me luck!
MMJ
